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Wednesday, October 11
It's 7:48 pm. The little guy fell asleep at 6:30. The older guys are at their Dads. M is in bed asleep, time difference makes it very late where he is. The is nothing on TV. I don't want to clean the house. I don't want to do laundry. I don't even want to call anyone to chat. I don't want to read. I am not even sleepy enough to convince myself to go to bed early. I hate living on my own. I'm not depressed. I'm not scared. I am just extraordinarily lonely. I want more. I don't care how greedy that sounds. It's not that I am unhappy in general. I just want more. Is that so awful? To expect more than lonely nights? This seemingly unending string of them punctuated with a taste, now and then,of life without them. A little tease that leaves me counting down the days until I can savor the next bite.
I am an avid reader and admitted geek. I will read anything I can get my hands on, I adore Shakespeare and anything historical.
I can take apart and rebuild my computer with ease and was hanging out online when all you could do was go to BBS's.
I love museums...any kind. I can get lost in a bookstore for hours. I annoy my oldest son with the amount of Dave Matthews
I play and I know every word to just about every Beatles song ever written. I am a diet coke junkie.
I tend to kill my houseplants...I simply forget they are there...although I do have one that has survived for four years
now...new record! I attend church every week (almost).
Update, October 2006: That plant died. This year I became the mother of a high schooler, middle schooler and a kindergartener. When did I become old enough for all that?
Update, November 2007: I am moving to the UK! Well, hopefully anyhow...have to sort out things with the little guys father and a million other details but as soon as I can manage it I am moving to be with the love of my life in a country I adore!
Update, August 2008: I live in ENGLAND!!!! The little guy and I moved over in April and absolutely love it. Just found a permanent job too. Sooooo Happy!
October 2009 Yeah so lost the perm job :( but still very, very happy :D