FailedFailed on the darn diet again. Yeah it did feel soooo good there for a while but alas I have yet again fallen off the wagon. *sigh* I suck at will power. Simply suck at it. Gonna have to give it a go again as I am quite disgusted with myself and my brown pants are too tight. I have too few clothes as it is to go and having some not fit. Then the little guy said I have a fat belly! Truth hurts. Then I was weighed at the Doctor's office last week. That was awful. 4 pounds sigh of my highest ever weight. Disgusting. No, I am not telling what the weight was. No. So tomorrow morning we begin anew. Healthy foods in healthy portions and exercise. I hate exercise. I bought new inner tubes for my bike though so I have no excuse not to ride. Well, once I actually put the tubes on and pump them up. *sigh* Yeah, gonna try to do it tonight. Did I mention I hate exercise?
Ok, pep talk. I will feel better, not only physically but I will feel better about myself as well. I will not die from exercise. I will feel as beautiful as M always says I am. I will have more energy. I will set a good example for my kidlets. I will not feel quite so uneasy about that first meeting with M. I can do this. I will do this. I have to do this.
Especially because if I top my all time highest weight I will have to crawl under a rock and hide. If I fit.