You take the good, you take the bad....
Which would you like first? Well, let's have the bad and then brighten it up a bit with the good in the end shall we?
Work is getting worse. We have, er had, seven people on our team at work. Four full time employees and three temps. First thing this morning my boss begins calling people in one at a time. It's never good news when you must be told it on your own. The temps went first and then us employees. Turns out only one temp was let go, her last day will be Friday. The boss says to all of us that's all I know for now.
An hour or so later another temp gets called back in again and jokingly says as she walks away...."well, here I go to get the axe". Turns out she was right and she and the other remaining temp was let go as well. All three to have their last days on Friday.
Then she calls in the four of us and tells us how things are looking good to hold any of the contract and how they are considering all of us for other positions in the company...blah blah. There is a real possibility that I will lose my job. May not happen for several weeks as the client will have to wind down and transition out but still....there is no guarantee at all that I will have a job come years end.
The idea of searching for a job again in the economy has me so scared I can't even begin to explain it. I have a good job. A really good job. Replacing it seems daunting and impossible.
I know M will take care of me. I have little to worry about in that regard, he won't let me lose my apartment or go without anything we need. I know this and I know he hates for me to even think that it's a burden to him but it's so hard not to think just that. This is how it's supposed to work anyhow isn't it? Two people just taking care of one another no matter what the other needs. I know I'd do anything in my power to make sure he's happy why does it shock me so that he is willing to do the same for me? He will take care of me because he has promised and all I need do is trust him to do so.
No matter what happens at work it will all be alright. Let me tell you...this concept feels so foreign to me. He's always here for me. Always. Everything, big or small....he listens, helps me work things out or just takes the lead and sees that they do. Goodness but I do love this man.
Now for the good news. My passport paperwork hasn't been lost. I called them today and it's been registered into the system at last! We added a note on the file that will hopefully have whomever should process give me a call so that I can pay on my visa. 108 days. Woohoo!